20261011_104341 My Newborn
tags: rawblogMy newborn came the other day
It’s one of those big moments in life that I always dreamt of and it’s the gap between the Hollywood magic and the reality is quite jarring. I stared at the baby, the baby kept his tiny little eyes shut because it was bright as hell in the delivery room. He looked like a purple alien and mewed like a kitten.
I don’t know, people say that they are filled with LOVE when they stare at their child, and I was there looking at him and thinking “boy, we got a lot of stuff to do.”
I’m kinda excited but scared at the same time, but I guess that’s what my mom was talking about when she said that a parent’s life is a life of worry. I didn’t really like that stupid game called “Death’s Stranding” but I did like Madds Mikelsen’s scenes, and his last line:
When I found out I was going to be a father, I was so scared. I had to be there for you and your mother, no matter what. I couldn’t just go off and get myself killed anymore. But I had it wrong. Being a father didn’t make me scared, it made me brave.
Fantastic!
Now that’s yeah what I am feeling. I find myself doomscrolling on reddit and I think: “Man, I gotta do better here. I’ll show my son that there’s a shit ton of cool stuff out there.” Sometimes I get so depressed, about how whole lotta people are gonna get their ass kicked in the upcoming days… but I won’t mope around. We gotta do what we can do.
Yeah it’s been a wild weekend. Loads of stuff to do but exciting times ahead. I’m not sure how I’ll balance it all but I guess I’ll go with the ol’ reliable: “One thing at a time!” That strategy has never let me down LOL.