20260929_214358 Howdy Howdy Night City!
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I had a really rough time sleeping yesterday, I stayed up until 2 AM for some reason. I’m one of those types who typically does exercises during the morning, but yesterday, I started working out at like 21:00, and it got me turnt up. I was like hell yeah LET’S FREAKING GO. Testosterone maxxing fr.
A little taste of how I was feeling at bed, it’s a great song, but definitely NOT something that would help me sleep. This is probably my favorite music video fr, I’m a sucker for cute girls bullying fat dudes. Absolutely blessed concept, I never get tired of that.
I was hoping that listening to some dude yammering on about whatever would get my ass to sleep, but instead things got weird.
This video was pretty good, it’s about how computers can actually be kinda cool. And yeah, they totally can be cool. It’s the people and the deadlines that suck around it. I was like so close to quitting my job, but then all my office bullies either got demoted or fucking fired, and my new manager told me I’m doing a great job. That’s some real boss ass shit.
If there’s ONE career advice I will give, it’s that NEVER doubt yourself. Always bee yourself, no matter what they say.
This video was truly terrible. This guy takes like 30 minutes of using mega big philosophical words to say “slop games make you feel like you did something with all these flashy effects, when all you did was just hold down a button and open up your wallet”. But to be fair, I haven’t read a book for about a half a year now, and I am feeling quite atrophied in that regard. I used to be a writer y’know. The one idea I did get was that the button press becomes the action, and the observing you becomes the character. Like playing Sekiro, you can do a shit-ton of things with the controller, but all you are doing is just mashing the buttons. You aren’t jumping in the valley getting chased by the snake or whatever, you, the player, are on the couch pressing buttons. But you, the person observing, think that you are now the dude on the screen, doing all those things.
It’s what the Japanese call 人馬一体 , jinba-ittai, typically meaning the man and horse become one, but can also mean that you and whatever become one. Not in a sexual sense of course, but more in a way that your conciousness melds together with whatever outside your body. This word was also used during motorcycle classes, and it was a very important concept to get it. You could not ride a motorcycle without melding together with the motorcycle. You could not just operate the motorcycle like a car, where you just push and pull levers and spin the steering wheel. You had to FEEL the motorcycle, where to look when turning, when to lean to take the curve, when to accelerate and when to change gears. If you did not FEEL the motorcycle, you would fall over. Simple as that.
The fact the human conciousness can do that is exploited by companies trying to make a quick buck out of you. Since you can feel things that are not happening to you, imagine things that are not real, then with some fancy effects they’ll trap your attention and make you feel like you did something more substantial than staring at a LCD screen and holding your thumb against it.
The point I’m trying to say is that be wary of where you put your feelings into. It’s so easy to become misled, but it’s also easy to get back on track when you pay attention on what’s really going on.
Anyway yeah I watched a bunch of videos, finally got my ass to sleep. Now it’s 22:32 here and it’s past my bedtime. Wish me luck!!
GOOD NIGHT